I recently came to the conclusion that my Blockbuster online movie rental subscription needs to come to a close. I took a movie back the other day to exchange for a new one and after wandering aimlessly around for 10 minutes realized there was nothing, nothing that I desired to watch out of the myriad of options. Same thing for TV. Nothing that I really want to watch (holding out for new seasons of Survivor and Biggest Loser). I haven’t seen a movie other than Wall*E (family movie date) all summer and haven’t wanted to (where are you Jason Bourne?). I remarked to my wife I am officially getting old.
Then I came across these posts (pastor bemoaning the waste of time and money to go see Dark Knight) and wondered to myself if maybe after 30+ years of walking with Christ, perhaps my desires have simply become deeper, and perhaps, I’ve realized that the trinkets and entertainment distractions of the world just won’t do. Not even for a temporary escape from reality which is what most entertainment options are. I hope that’s the case. And if so, thank you Father.
I’m reminded of a quote from C.S. Lewis.
Indeed, if we consider the unblushing promises of reward and the staggering nature of the rewards promised in the Gospels, it would seem that Our Lord finds our desires, not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased.
I’ll still go to movies, and my TV isn’t going to the dump. At least not yet. But I hope this trend continues. That I will find more joy and enjoyment in God, in the joys of marriage and family, in the fellowship of believers than I do in time wasting and money wasting distractions of the world.