On the day that my final cast was to come off I could not wait. Six weeks of casting had grown old, and I was ready to be rid of the inconvenience. Before the doctor was about to release us, my wife asked me if I had told him of the swelling that I had expereienced in my knee two days earlier. I had not, so I mentioned to him. I rolled up my pant legs and the doctor compared legs. He noted there was a little swelling still visible, so to be on the safe side he sent me right over to radiology where an ultrasound on the leg could be done to make sure I had not developed any blood clots that might have caused the swelling. The doctor assured us that it was rare for someone my age and activity to experience that, but we ought to rule it out just to be on the safe side.
I was a little put out by the trip to one more doctor as I had made lunch plans with a friend that I would now have to cancel. I called my friend on the phone and with a measure of obvious disgust left a message that I would have to cancel as I had to go and have an ultrasound to “look at a blood clot that might kill me.”
Two hours later I was admitted the hospital for an eight day stay in a step-down room with stuff monitoring my heart, oxygyn levels etc, because of multiple blood clots that should have killed me.
God revealed to me just how proud and arrogant my heart is. I now wake up with the realization that in the very act of opening my eyes, I have been given a gift; the gift of another day. A day I was not promised the night before. I find my heart much more thankful for good health, and much more aware that apart from God’s grace, my life will disappear like a vapor despite my best efforts to be healthy.
James 4:13- 16 Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit”— 14 yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. 15 Instead you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.” 16 As it is, you boast in your arrogance. All such boasting is evil.